Of Kuala Lumpur and Nottingham

Nottingham Malaysia, located right in the outskirt of Kuala Lumpur, it's full of mud
Kuala Lumpur, capital of Malaysia, also, full of mud
Putrajaya, center administration of Malaysia, full of shit. Need i say more?
Everything bores me. Of course, except the food.
Joseph's mom been treating us Crystal Jade, Dragon-i, Kluang Station, ow..and Nando's!
and I dah jelak eating these. omfg. for once, I want Mc Donalds. cheap and satisfying. :D
ok, i'm just bored. KL really bores me, same for Damansara. (imagine going to KL for 5 times in 2 weeks time. omfggg)


I need to go somewhere else!

Won't Stop

Now i stared at you
From across the room
Until both my eyes were faded
I was in a rush
I was out of luck
Now I'm so glad that I waited
Well you were almost there
Almost mine...yeah
They say love ain't fair
But I'm doing fine...

And i swear it's you
I swear you
I swear it's you that it waited for
I swear it's you
I swear its
I swear it's you that my heart beats for
I swear it's you
I swear it's you
I swear it's you that I've waited for
I swear it's you
I swear it's you
I swear it's you that my heart beats for
And it ain't gonna stop
It just won't stop

Stop it

stop it
please

it's not funny
i'm serious

stop it
i'll do whatever it takes
to stop you

my heart wont fall for another trap
so, fuck off. period.

Of Coke and something else

sipping Coke while smoking excites me, somehow
writing blog starts to become routine
like taking a dump

the view outside looks tranquil
of sudden i feel like setting up a bomb
but i realise sourcing from internet doesnt help
so i gave up on tht thought, for now..

but seriously,
the view is so serene, that find myself turning into a monk
but no, i still got my hair.

sigh,
Lifehouse just had their gig in Singapore
and I missed it, because there's no hot chick in the group la wtf.
I just like listening to their songs aight?

3 lectures are cancelled tomorrow
I got 6 days off till next monday! and nothing to do!
cause everyone else's having classes. cis.

i need to do something productive.
away from cleaning my crotch again and again :D
away from counting the pennies i have
away from counting the keytabs on my keyboard
away from stalking people on facebook
away from msn
away from internet
away from campus
away from boredom.
away from work

suggestions. anyone?

Of Religion and Life

People always talk about civilisation, human nature, cultures, language, politics, economics, and of course, religions. But religion is always something different from all other things. Well, I'm always having contradicting thoughts on the question "What is God?". Actually, it's more towards 'what God is to me', rather than what is God in general, or what present religious institutions say about God. Of course, I've been listening to people talking about their loyalty to the only and ultimate God at all times, but i never heard people talking about God as if God is the creation of human and not the other way round. It's seems daunting to question even the nature of God. The question of What it is, who he/she is, where, when, how...... never questioned. Of course, there is the Atheist, but Atheist are just against such beliefs.

I'm on the other hand, still open to ...well literally everything. I'm just a soul seeking for answers in this universe. I'd like to see the term God as something created by human itself and that God is also something existing beyond human, and everything else in this universe.

Life is simple, you choose to believe in God, and you go to heaven. Otherwise, you go down. But how true is the truth that lies upon us? What's the reality and what's not. There is always a reason for everything but there lies no answers to everything. I used to have a friend who told me that he chose to believe in God because he rather not go to Hell in his after-life. He believe that if there is no God, then it's fine, he's got nothing to lose even if he believed in God. He's 'preparing' himself for the uncertainty. Deep down I thought, "right, u gotta be kidding me, seriously?" But after second thought, i think he's right in one sense. But i'm still confused. In terms of why would i want to think about all these when i have my whole life spread upon me and it's up to me to live my life. (sound Atheist? not really) At the same time, I realised that, i'm just being ignorant, about the future.

Uncertainties and questions that are not answered rules the universe. Here i am telling him that i'm looking for an answer in this world, that i shall live my life the way i like it without fear to God and just live in the present without fear of the future uncertainties. But, honestly, I'm terrified. Is it human nature? God knows.

So when talking about life, people tend to relate life to religion, in terms of the way they 'should be' living to praise God. I personally respect that a lot, because at least they have a motivation, a belief.

People always, perceive religion as if it's some 'thing'. You always get people saying, look at them Christians, ask for forgiveness but keep committing crimes, oh there goes World Trade Center, these Muslims scums. Did they ever realise that Christianity, Buddhism, Islam and other religions are RELIGIONS and not Christians, Muslims, Buddhist. Perceiving religions based on the worshippers are just wrong. Humans, i say, always act on animal instinct, and judging religions based on human natures, is just finger pointing. There's always looking out for something to be blamed for what human did.

Sigh, i wonder if you understand what i'm trying to say so far. My whole point is, the differences between civilisation, human nature, cultures, language, politics, economics, and of religions. Are they of very much different? or religion is purely, something beyond human nature?

So. what say you?

Creation of God or Creation of Human?

Think twice before you choose

Mind you, choosing the former, you are actually on the latter
Choosing the latter, you're actually on the former.

Kalau nak cantik, makan apple dan zapple :))))

back to Malaysia,
hating the hot and humid weather,
hating the rude people,
lovin' the food
love drivin' my car again
new apartment
boring final year

missing Ohio's rain
not missing CP (it was great after all, i think) :)))

been thinking a lot
and waiting.
for nothing (i guess)
facebook starts to bore me

already planning for next summer
should get a job this year
been catching up with everyone
and losing touch with someone(yes, you)

i wish i'm there and not here.
oh dear mighty God
make me a Ironman Limited Edition suit.
I wanna join counter-terrorist

went for Eagle Eye, Shia Labeouf's same acting bores me
and Painted Skin the same day, Chinese movie productions need Jackie Chan
two movies in 4 hours.
exhausted.

sigh.
life's exhausting.
and i'm bored with everything.
somebody pls. excites me.

Irony

Life is boring, without the right person.
Tasteless, without the right smell.
Motionless, without the right chemistry.

We're always on the run, aimlessly aiming for the only one.
And in the end, someone will stumble and fall.
And we laugh to ourselves,
Thinking how stupid we are to believe and wait.

To believe in,
the laughters one shared?
the agitation behind the intimacy?
the moments one brush each others' hair?
and the dubious truths one whispered to another?
Oh, how easily innocence turned sorrow.

It's always the only one.
But the truth is, nobody knows.
And everyone just wait.
Waiting for something that never comes,
In the end, there's nothing left but rubble.

Though life goes on, where
our steps aren't playing the same rhythm anymore,
our eyes aren't seeking for the same direction anymore,
our minds may moved on.
But what's left behind, never will be forgotten.

Without you,
coffee may not smell like it used to be;
cigarette may not taste serene anymore;
the noise of the crowd may filled only with loneliness,

But life goes on.
Even if it lost its reason.

But life goes on......
Ironic, dont you think?